Mercies in Disguise Room 303 Airport Road Abu Dhabi 12:36
March 26, 2012. That day has been one of the “heaviest” days of my life. My heart was burdensome and it made work grueling for me. In my mind were clattered thoughts and self-questioning why i had to commit those mistakes.
In my 5th year of working as a nurse, those have been considered “failures” for me. I couldn’t contain why i had to miss some safety procedures that placed me and my patients at risk. .
I wanted to cry but i didn’t know whom to pour out my emotions. I wanted to pray but i couldn’t. I merely whispered“Lord, intervene please, Lord dispense your favor upon me.”
I was on the verge of crying when ironically, i had to stay some more hours in our unit for backlogs.
Good thing my hubby’s “presence” (tho not physically) is always there. He had to wait for me during that wee hours in the Philippines so we could chat and he could comfort me. Talking to him on skype with shed tears, made the load tolerable. His prayer assured me once again that God will always be in control.
The following day, Nay Dian, another lifeline of mine was online. I shared her what i went through and asked for her prayers. Her messages cheered me more.
She said…..
i shared about apologizing..just be humble dear..admit you’re wrong and assure them of your motives tao ka lang..di mo naman ma perfect lahat ng bagay.you are special..you are unique..you are accepted..you are loved..mas maraming maganda sa pagkatao mo..minor lang yan..part of our sinfulness..basta move on after saying youre sorry.theres more chances pa to prove you are good.
i prayed kanina pa and wil still do. dont let it bother you dear..it will come to pass.spice lang yan sa buhay. basta alam mo may naninniwala sayo sa pagkatao mo ..let those temporary challenges make you strong
Nanay even shared me this song; Blessings by Laura Story. What an encouragement!
Laura Story Blessings (click this for the audio) or http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SGniRk_GcLs (for the you-tube video)
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It’s not our home
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise
The Lord even re-affirmed the same message in my devotions.
March 25, 2012 Imperfect Leaders.
2 Corinthians 3: 5 Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.
- We want strength so we can help God with His work; He makes us weak so He can demonstrate His power.
- He lets us fail so they can see that apart from God we’re not much at all.
- Ultimately the only good thing about any of us is the goodness of God. Our sufficiency is from God.
- If we rely upon God’s strength and live a life that’s true. Then what we do in Jesus name, will be His work through us.
- Only as we see our weakness can we draw upon God’s strength.
March 26, 2012: Turning Trials Into Triumphs
James 1:2 My brethren count it all joy when you fall into various trials.
- Don’t resent trials as intruders, but welcome them as friends.-J.B Phillips.
- Trials are to be our friends if our goal is to become more like Christ.-Selwyn Huge
- God chooses what we go through; we choose how we go through it.
March 27, 2012: Courage To Continue
Haggai 2: 4 But be strong and work for I am with you.
Haggai 2:5 And my Spirirt remains among you do not fear.
Haggai 2:8 The silver is mine and the gold is mine
Haggai 2:9 The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house. And in this place i will grant peace.
- As God’s people, our confidence comes from our relationship with Him. He is with us. We are His people
- We find courage to stand when we kneel before the Lord.
March 28, 2012: God’s Amazing Patience
- Although we stumble everyday, the Lord is always there. To lift us up, forgive our sin and show His love and care.
- Our sin is great, God’s grace is greater
March 29, 2012: Get Up and Start Over
Psalms 37: 23 If the Lord delights in a man’s way, He makes his step firm.
Psalms 37: 24 Though He fall, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord upholds Him.
Psalms 37:28 For the Lord loves the just and will not forsake His faithful ones. They will be protected forever.
Psalms 37:40 The Lord helps them and delivers them; He delivers them from the wicked and saves them because they take refuge in Him.
- There is something worse than falling down-it is staying down.
- Success means that you get up one more time than you fall down.
- We’re thankful Lord that when we fall we can begin anew. If humbly we confess our sin, then turn and follow you.
God wanted me to experience Him more through these. He wanted me to get out of my comfort zones for me to know He is just near; that in His presence i can always take refuge.
Thank you Lord for You have manifold ways to show that You’re real in my life. Indeed, these trials are your Mercies in Disguise.